Once again I realised how happy and smooth in my life.
Yes, I had went through some difficulties in my past. But yet, I have my lovely family always by my side~ And I learnt something good from that. I grew.
However,there is someone in the world suffered in the past and until today, he is still influenced by those incidents~ He can't let go of that unfortunate.
I will pray for you,friend.

Yesterday,I failed my Histo colloq for the first time.......
I really stunt there, looking at her: What the hell, u failed me within 1min.S**T
Well, it's the theory problem again. I'm overconfident==
I missed the best chance to settle my colloq debt. haiz.....
What coming next week are Histo colloq, Anat debt settle day.
The week afte next is Microbs and Anat Colloq and "abnormal" Biochem==

I felt I have no spiritual growth recently.
I wonder why. Maybe I dont read recently, maybe I'm busy all the time and didn't "think". And the worst condition:undergrowth/retardation.
I stopped growing since I'm went back to M'sia, I think.
Too relax, and now I felt empty.
So bad.....
I want to find my heart, I want to grow stronger in mind, I want to pass all my debts.
It's so scary when we counted our pendings.
Hopefully, everyone will be better and better.
Wish myself and my fellow groupmates. Of course, my love.

Crazy-ing

I'm crazy. Now is 5am, and later i have colloqium of Anatomy.
What the hell I'm doing here?
Online, obviously.
Recently, the pace of life was so fast==
Keep colloq, fail,retake,new colloq......endless routine.==
I loss my pace.
Study at every last minute, no preparing for class, confuse from the begining till the end of chapters.
I hate that...........

The atmosphere changed. I realised.
Whatever happened is happened, i dont want to comment.
I just hope that we will get over the stormy days soon.

5.35am A good time==
Study nothing,but brain is dizzy~~~
Wish myself all the best, Anatomy, I'll "catch" you! (~Cat chasing after rats~)
Jia you~~

伤。离别

两个月就这样过去了。我知道自己什么都没做到。
说是要进修，没有。
说是要温习，没有。
说是要整理笔记，更是没有。
更可耻的是，我一点也不觉得愧疚==
好吧，偶尔会有自我厌恶。。。维持三分钟左右吧~
颓废啊，颓废。你怎么那么喜欢我呢？害我也不知不觉爱上你了~==+

倒数120个小时开始。wow~还可以看到100+的数字。还真的小小的高兴了一下下。
我在自欺欺人了，我知道。
要离开家里了。
其实也并非真的那么依恋家里。
我依恋的，正是这种颓废悠闲的生活吧~还真不孝啊~~
要从废材般的生活，转换回之前那种拼命的压力生活。光想就觉得害怕。
我很没用的未战先缩了。
超级不想回去面对那种生活。
更别论即将来到的anatomy and histology年终考。
我都已经把上两个学期的东西忘得七七八八了。
三个学期的东西一起考，呵，恭喜我自己吧~
我可以预见自己发疯的样子了。
但愿我可爱的室友们不会扫到台风尾而把我丢出门外^^
不过，我倒是已经有心理准备我的房间会有怎么样的低迷气氛。
好强的人聚在一起，好是互相激励，但坏也坏在互相施压。
我自认抗压力还真的弱得可怜。
是好在相当有再生能力。毕竟父母的支持真的是无限力量。

那天在老哥德毕业礼上听到献唱的“爸爸妈妈”张栋梁的歌。
感触颇深。那个场景，那个mv，那个气氛，嗯，味道对了。
害我迷上了那首歌，一直唱，我姐都快受不了了。
那首歌，每字每句都唱到我心坎里了。
“……偶尔我没回家，或工作到天亮，偶尔你慰问的电话让我充满力量……”
只不过我不是工作，是读书。
“……请记得要常回家看看爸爸和妈妈，简单的一顿饭，他们也开心很久呀……”
这句我想到的是我自己，跟家人吃饭啊，是我家的传统。可是在外面就算了吧。
“……请原谅我的能力不足，还要努力啊……”
唉唉。。。我兄姐比较有这觉悟吧？

我在不安吧？不安什么？呵……我不知道。
明白人家说，无知，比较幸福。
记得去年第一次出去，我满心只有对环境陌生的疑惑而已。
踏入第二个年头，反而更觉不安。
是明白了自己难捱的日子要来到？还是纯粹那股怕“兢输”的心态作祟？
我不确定，或许，都有吧……
我这个人啊，做不得大方，却也恨被说小气。
伪君子，约莫就是我这种人吧。
好想当个真小人啊。东方非，我崇拜你==

Exam is just around the corner!

I was so freaking lazy for the past few weeks, until now I feel "suffer" as in I have so much things to do,but i have lack of time.
Next week is going to crazy.
I was so tired and understress looking at the stupid timetable.
Monday-Anat/Histo colloq.
Tues-Chem Credit Test.(considered final,because i DONT WANT to take final paper)
Wed-Physics Credit test (Considered final,same. impossible i'm willing to take fianl which in oral form)
Thur-Latin colloqium, (additional with biology colloqium,if tomorrow i cant pass it.)
Friday-Anat/Histo colloq
Look at the timetable, what i think is: CRAZY
I cant think anyword else other than that.
Im going to die with this exam marathon.
Tuesday and Wednesday are the most important things.I want and i have to pass it.
That's the point why i'm so~~stressed.

And now i suppose to study the biology for tomoro colloq,in order to get zachut.
But, but..............................the notebook is "gone". I dont know where's the book now.
Whom did i borrow to?==
I hate this feeling.
Asked the one i have some memories in my mind, but they said had return to me.
So, the problem is still within myself.
Crab==

Good luck baby~
I can survive!

A spring without mood of spring

I hate it! I hate it! I hate it.......................
Don't ask me what am i hate!
Just hate it hate it hate it!!!!!
Everything seems damn bad to me. I can only feel my anger.
But I dont know what I'm angry with!
We called this as pms==

Well, it's spring.
Suppose to have an enjoyable mood after a long,extremely cold winter.
But............I cant feel any happiness!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

What I want to do now is to ................................scream out loud!!
Yes, tomorrow got colloq, the next day have to prepare presentation and 3 control themes, the next next day got 2 controls waiting there, the next next next day is another stressful anatomy class!
So what the hack i'm wasting my time here?
I'm sure everyone must be asking the question.
Well, even me myself is searching for the answer, currently not available==!

Why am I mood swinging!!!!!

Winter Break!

Finally...we get all the 8 zachut.
We can start enjoy our winter break! Hohoo~
I plan to catch up all my lecture notes. I'd wipe out all the "cakar ayam" which sometimes even me myself can't read the writing ==

Tomorrow, Keily and Sookyee will fly back to Malaysia.
Am I missed them? hoho,of course....................................NOT. XDD
They will come back soon. They have never leave in my mind.xp
Bon Voyage, my dear.

The rest of us plan to have a trip to Egypt, except Kate and Jun.
I hope she'd change her mind and follow us.But we w'll never give her pressure.
I think Egypt is worth to go. For me, that's a place that I can't backpaking.
Luckily my family willing to support me. Thank you,Dad and Mum.
And thanks my sis and bro for supporting and persuaded mum^^
Anywhere, we still can't make sure the trip will be carried out.
There are still quite a lot of things to be confirmed.
It's still a question mark to have the trip.

So....I have to finish the work before leaving for holidays.
I have to.I HAVE to. I HAVE TO!
Bonnie, let's carry out our dicipline plan!!!
Wahahahahah~
Suddenly remembered I have Philosophy final eaxam on 24th.
I forgot==
Thought can enjoy all the time...orz
Anywhere...............................

HAPPY WINTER HOLIDAYS!!!
^^

Untitled

Seriously, i can't give a title.
I started a day with frightening.
Shouted at mum on long-distance call.
Sounds stupid but it happened.

About my parcel, I need to submit some documents to declare that I'm the receiver,is here.
The problem is 1-10 Jan is Russian public holidays.
And I missed the calls from the agent who handle my parcel,help me to take my parcel from custom.
My parcel is still blocked at custom.
If I don't declare asap, the parcel will be sent back to Malaysia.
And my mum will kill me==
Sure==

Tomorrow:keep calling.
Tomorrow have to fotostat things also.
I can't postpone it anymore==
Well, as my mum said,my bad habits--like to postpone my things, "act like a tortoise"
==
That's what my mum usually say==
I hate handle things that need documents.But everything go through that process T.T

Well, it's still a happy day anyway.
My gang cooked glutinous rice ball just now.
Proud to say I can make it.XD

Enjoy the food.

Suddenly remembered that we have activities for consecutive weekends.From 18 Dec till today.
Hoho.A wonderful hostel life.^^

New borned blogger

2010, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

A new year, started with a new thing.
Although lazy as I, created a blog.
Should I say it's a revolution in myself? ^ ^

Begin the first day of 2010 with blogging, sounds great.
Thanks Keily, teach me how to create a blog.

Now I have a short holidays ,1-10 of Jan.
But it's still not the time to relax.
11 / 1 is the colloqium for Anatomy.When I can get all my zachut ?..............
Gossh ...... I got headache think about it .==

Forget about it for now.
It's New Year!!
Let's crazy over ~ ~

Wish you all:
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!